On Wednesday September 20th 2006 Miss J Walls changed my life for the better... not the immediate better as recoevry hasnt been very smooth but soon (hopefully within the next two weeks!) the real me can finally start to emerge
I'm making a whole new start... got to attack the old habbits that keep scuppering me up.. mainly emotional stuff which lead me into crazy food binges and make me feel useless and misrable
I have some goals
The first being to be back at goal by the end of Feb 2007
That's realistic
Today I am likely to be something like 11st 5lb.. so I have 12lb to loose to get back to goal
Interesting my mental demons keep telling me what a twat I am for getting back to 11st 5lb but in reality some weight gain was bound to happen as I'm not running at the moment - havent run for 9 weeks now, and I have been hit and miss at the gym... so bound to happen, going down in mood and being ill with infections also took it's toll
But today feels different
I feel tierd still and I feel fat... but I know that this is just a temporary effect of the surgery
I havent even had time to think about how the surgery's affected things.. not had chance to get giddy and that's really sad.
Today I went out for the time in years to Tesco WITH NO BRA on!! LOL.. NO bra!! Unheard of in my whole life!!
My new boobs dont jossle about and they stay were they are supposed to! I think once I get back into running and the gym and get the weight back to normal that I will end up as a D cup
That's still big - overall I think I am dissapointed in the size. I would have liked them smaller. B or C cup would have been better. But what the surgeon did is in proportion and looks a good shape
As I said what I am trying to do from today is come to terms with the new me, bury the old crap food habbits and simply get well.
